Alone

I hide out in my room a lot just because I hate being around people sometimes. I love being alone but I hate the feeling of loneliness. I could be in a room surrounded by people and still feel alone. I leave because I feel awkward. I feel alone when no one notices my absence. I don't want it to be that way. I sound like an attention whore but I want people to notice me. I could go an entire day and not talk to anyone. No one would see a difference in their life.
I sound like a whining teenager but I want to feel wanted. If I'm wanted, I will never be alone. Being alone is something that has become far too common in my life. I need someone there. Even if I could talk to a complete stranger, I wouldn't feel so alone. I like strangers. There's a certain level of trust because they haven't done anything yet to make them untrustworthy. I want to trust people and tell them everything so I won't be alone but that is one of the biggest difficulties in my life. 
Forever alone in mind.